The YBS Forum 2011

Hello my dears,

On Thursday I made my way to London to perform at this years YBS Forum and can you believe that I actually remembered to ask somebody to record it? I know; gasp! *shock* *faints*. So I guess I should post the video...

The human mic stand? Do you not have one? They're all the rage lol.
Thanks again Dwain for recording this (hugs).

I hope all is well with you dearies,
talk soon. Really I promise..

Rella x

The Young Victoria, Ballroom and other such shenanigans

Oh. My. Gosh.
I am in love.

"You are the only wife i've got or ever will have. You are my whole existence and I will love you until I take my last breath."

With the strings in the background? Are you freaking kidding me? I was on the verge of a swoon. A SWOON.

Seriously, I am ruined. Ruined for all men. Prince Albert has ruined me. *sigh*

All jest aside there is some truth in this. No I am not ruined, but I dunno, with Darcy's and Albert's and "You are my whole existence's" ingrained in my brain there is a small part of me that wouldn't settle for less. I have both high and low standards, I am both a cynic and a romantic and I guess most importantly I both know that Darcy is fictional but hope for my own. What do I mean? I mean that sure film, literature and music are not the most sensible places to form opinions on love from but I know the love that I am capable of giving and would want to be loved in the same way. Well not exactly the same way. In the male equivalent way.

So yes, I am ruined, for all men, except my Darcy/Albert/all the other fictional characters I've spoken about.

But seriously, I really thought that with all the period drama's i've seen and all the times I've swooned that I'd become implacable.. unmovable.. I was wrong. All it took was those words and I was gone, lost. I love movies lol.

Changing the subject though, guess what I did??!!!!!
On monday I fulfilled a dream of mine and took a ballroom class!!! For those of you who don't know; I LOVE dance, I'm obsessed with Strictly Come Dancing and I have always wanted to dance ballroom. Always.
So when I heard of the ballroom society at my uni I practically buzzed with excitement.
Monday was their taster session and I went filled with dreams and anticipation and I WAS NOT DISAPPOINTED. I can't remember the last time I was so happy. Like really. I don't know what it is about ballroom that fills me with such joy. But I love it. And dancing it was a dream. For me one of the best feelings in the world is being in hold. I felt like such a girl, no, I felt feminine. That is it. Feminine. It was amazing how you could instantly see the difference in dancing when you have a good partner and when you have a not so good partner.

With a good partner everything goes seamlessly. The steps just come, you don't have to think as hard about them and you can feel what he's about to do. But then you get a crappy partner and everything falls apart. Literally, it's a mess. Steps you knew and danced a second ago become gibberish and you can't find your place and YOU have to lead. Fortunately I had more good partners than bad and I left the class on a freaking high. The biggest high i've ever experienced. I can't wait for the next session.

I sang to my new flatmates recently. I hadn't sung since I'd been here and nobody knew about my Rella J-ness. Somehow it came up and somebody asked me to sing. I refused, adamant to keep it all under wraps and then eventually I was like 'I might aswell'. I got Dave and sang Do You Remember.
It's crazy how misunderstood I felt before. It's crazy how big a part music plays in my identity. It's who I am and when they didn't know that I felt like a fraction of myself. Do you know what I mean? Now that they've heard me I feel so relieved. Like I can really be myself now. And be seen as myself and not the fraction that they knew before.

I'm not making any sense. It's hard sometimes to fully communicate what i'm thinking. *sigh*

I guess i'll leave it there.
But to those of you wondering (O.) I'm fine, more than fine, great even. Especially after my Albert encounter. And let me not even get into my new found love of Daniel Day Lewis. I had a field day watching him yesterday. "You can sleep, sleep here in my arms, like a baby bird" *ear kiss* *ear kiss*
Seriously, I AM RUINED.
Rella x

Oh wow, Kersha Bailey.

It doesn't take me very long to fall in love. With a song that is.
I stumbled across this on the wonder that is YouTube and it was definitely love at first sight. Or you know, love at first listen..

I HAD to share.
Right up my aural alley. This is the music I love guys. *sigh*
I'm so sorry I haven't been around, i've had alot to say and then when I didn't say it and a certain amount of time passed- I couldn't say it anymore.

I'm here in a new room, in a new town, surrounded by new people.. it's so strange being surrounded by people who don't know you. As in I have a whole suitcase of memories, quirks, lingos and thoughts that nobody knows about.
I don't know how I feel about that.

But yeah, Kersha, this song brightened up my day. How? It reminded me of what I love. I dunno, you have a certain taste and then you find yourself eating the same things, and then you get used to these foods and then eating becomes less fun because its the same food. But then you taste something new, and it's still appealing to your taste, but its NEW. Your taste buds are vibrating with excitement, your eyes open a bit wider and a satisfaction spreads throughout your body. You feel alive!!!

hehe. I can be a tad over dramatic at times. But thats pretty much what happens with me and music. Keep in mind though that because this new food is so tasty you eat it over and over and over again until your taste buds are less excited by it, things become grey and the whole cycle starts again -_-

Is this what Elton meant in the Circle of Life?
No?
lol any excuse for a Lion King reference!

Rella x